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Telling my mental health journey. Talking about the hilarious everyday madness we call life.


I’m extraordinarily blessed in the napping skills department.

This is me in silent contemplation. Just kidding, I was probably thinking about food.

Guten Tag!

That’s German for “Good day” or “hello” or whatever. I’m Emilia Jade Smith and I am a bilingual European currently living in Germany. I’m so pleased you found me, it’s really quite the jungle out there.

I’m your average European woman in her thirties, and not many would…

4 quick fixes to get me through panic and anxiety attacks

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If you have ever had a panic attack — how often did it hit you at a convenient time and in a convenient setting?

I know, probably never. That’s the nature of panic and anxiety attacks. They come in so many forms and facets and don’t usually happen at home…


And how barking dogs and angry cats can help you

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“I hate people!”

“Dogs are better than humans”

“Who needs friends if you can have a dog?”

Does any of this sound familiar to you? Perhaps you even agree wholeheartedly. Maybe you don’t only occasionally hate people, but instead, loathe the existence of other human beings every single day.

Harboring hate only hurts one person alone



Shooting the elephant in the room

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Dear valued employees,

So many new faces! I had no idea you all worked here— so thank you for showing up. Or are you just the cleaning service? The coffee machine maintenance people? I’m not so sure now.

I don’t know about you, but I stopped memorizing faces a while…

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How do you view your mental health? As something robust that won’t require too much of your attention or rather something fragile that needs tender love and care?

We might be inclined to be negligent with our mental health as the consequences of neglect are not always immediately visible.



I can’t tell the difference anymore

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Sometimes I wonder whether I have the brain of a 90-year old that is happily occupying the skull of a 30-year old. I was probably abducted by aliens at one point in my life and they had a little mix-up during one of their experiments before sending me back to…

About being beautifully unbalanced

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I was never the cool kid in school. And I’ve been telling myself that this was the case entirely of my own free will. I was different because I chose to be different.

So in my personal narrative, I was quite a young heroine for being so unadapted. But in…

The gift of handwritten words

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I recently wrote a letter to a 96-year old lady. To this day I have never met her.

But I had read her moving book in which she is telling her tragic life story. …


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I haven’t always paid attention to my mental health. In fact, it took a long time for me to even grasp the very concept of it. How can something so elusive, something that you can neither see nor touch be either in good or in bad health?

I was a…


4 methods helping me to prepare for seasonal depression

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The Northern Hemisphere is heading towards winter and for me, that usually means preparing for an additional bout of seasonal depression on top of my already existing chronic depression — leaving and forcing me to cope with a rather wild blend of all sorts of emotions.

November is usually the…

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