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Why $27.41 Are a Slap in the Face for My Mental Illness
Take that, depression!
Let me share two dates with you:
- May 13, 2012, was the day I uploaded the final post to my personal blog.
- June 8, 2021, marks a new beginning. It was the day I uploaded my first post to Medium.
That amounts to a total of 3,313 days without any creative output.
Let that sink in. That is only 337 days short of 10 years.
I love writing. Always have and always will. Writing is crucial to my mental survival and words are the only means I have to process frequent and overwhelming waves of confusing emotions.
Not being able to write for such a long time meant that my ability to heal was severely limited. Depression killed my spark, but I would have needed that spark to kill depression.
What a vicious circle.
I have recently written about how ketamine helped me claim my life back, but what I have only recently realized is how it also helped me to reclaim my creativity. My lifeblood.
I woke up one day and the spark was just back. It was back as suddenly as it had disappeared back in 2012.
The ideas just keep coming, my words just keep flowing and I feel nothing but deep…
